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Unsettled

*Every year, I write a letter to our church reflecting on what the Lord has done in my own life and in our midst over the previous year. Below is the letter I shared at our annual meeting on January 26, 2025.

My Dearest Shades Valley,

This past year is hard for me to describe. The only word that comes to mind for me personally is “unsettled.” I am a creature of habit, and I like it that way. I could eat the same thing every day, do all the same things, and lay down to sleep perfectly satisfied. But unfortunately, there’s this thing called time. Time has a way of unsettling things. My little children aren’t so little anymore as Levi has outgrown me. More than that, the majority of my kids are now in the youth group, and I feel like I’m still playing catch up. Where did all my toddlers go?

You’d think that twenty-one years of marriage would really make things settle into a routine, but Holly and I keep changing. I was once the social butterfly of our family, but she has grown into that role while I’ve become an old curmudgeon who just wants to stay home. I exaggerate and I kid, but there is some truth to what I am saying.

In so many ways, 2024 made me feel unsettled, like I was losing control, and perhaps that’s one reason I locked in on a health journey as a new routine, a new comforting thing I could control.  But it wasn’t just my family life that God was unsettling. In 2024, we finalized Brad’s part-time hours here so he could also do part-time counseling. And if that wasn’t enough of a shift in my work routine, John-Mark went on Sabbatical about the same time Joely went on maternity leave.

My head was left spinning and by the end of the summer, I was reeling from the busiest season I’d ever seen at Shades. But I believe God was doing something through all of this “unsettling.” He was preparing me for something new. A new phase of life with my family. The Lord refused to let me settle into being comfortable and putting things in cruise control. He roughed up my routines to revive my engagement with my wife and kids. He shook me to wake me, so that I might not long for what once was, but might love what actually is the gift in front of me. God was preparing me and serving my family.

God was also preparing me for a new phase of life at Shades. Refusing to let me phone it in, keep it comfortable, be satisfied with what is good even if it is not what is best. The Lord unsettled me so that I might pay better attention to our discipleship needs. And, as you know, we are aiming to meet those needs in 2025. I am so thankful for all the men and women who helped to develop and refine our discipleship plan. I know there are others who would love to have been involved in the planning, which is why I am thankful the plan is unfolding in phases. This allows us time to talk and make tweaks… time to think and to dream… time to pray, try, revise and redo.

Shades, I know that new things can be unsettling! I feel unsettled is all I’ve felt for the past year. But, I believe that was God preparing me to serve you when things feel unsettling. And ultimately, I believe through the unsettling, he is doing something good. I know that is true in my family.

As comfortable as I was having kids, I wouldn’t go back in time if I could, because I love the gift of my teens (and my tween). As much has Holly and I have changed over time, I wouldn’t dream of hitting rewind because I don’t want to miss who we are right now. I can look back on my family and see that God has been good, but it is the unsettling that forces me to see he is doing something good. 

And Shades, I believe the same is true for our faith family. We can look back and see that God has been so good. But, in 2025 I want to see, I believe we will see, that he is doing something good… even when it feels unsettling.

I love you all,

Pastor Jonathan

And it came to pass… (an Advent poem)

Every year, I try my hand at poetry as a Christmas gift to the body of Shades Valley Community Church. This Advent season, we’ve been reflecting on the strangeness of God’s faithfulness in how he brings his promises to pass in unexpected ways. The poem below is my attempt at expressing the truths we’ve seen in a way that leads us to see and celebrate the strangeness of God’s faithfulness in our own lives.

Merry Christmas, 
Pastor Jonathan


And it came to pass…

And it came to pass 
Cesar gave a decree,
yet devoid of power,
in reality empty.

For Caesar’s heart was a river 
in God’s hands, 
Turned where he willed,
according to plan.

And that plan was to keep
promises made.
That plan was a Christ
coming to save.

But the promise was kept
in the strangest of ways.
God’s sovereign power
in a manger was laid.

The savior was swaddled
and rocked by his mom.
The almighty looked weak,
anything but strong.

But that’s how God works,
his faithfulness strange,
yet it is unfailing
day after day.

Whether sovereignty swaddled
or Christ crucified,
his word comes to pass
every time.

So when you look at your life
and he’s hard to see…
when evil overshadows
the light of his glory…

When the world makes you doubt
if he really is faithful…
remember sovereignty 
once laid in a cradle.

And remember the cross…
the place we confess
that what looked like failure
was faithfulness.

So when life is hard,
or when we breath our last…
may we cling to his promises…
they shall come to pass.

Here I Raise My Ebenezer

*On Sunday, at our annual SVCC family meeting, I briefly reflected on 2023. Below are the thoughts I shared in the form of a letter.

My Dearest Shades Valley,

When I look back over 2023, the first word that comes to mind is “milestone.” Whether I’m thinking about my life personally or our community, it feels like a year of milestones. Then again, the more I think about it, the more that word transforms into something a bit more biblical. You see, milestones tend to mark significant events of achievement. They are things we have accomplished, endured, or completed. And, while it is not wrong to celebrate such things, I feel like the Bible provides a better word to describe what I see when I look back at last year, namely, “Ebenezer.”

That word comes from 1 Samuel 7. The prophet Samuel wanted to commemorate the Lord’s victory over Israel’s enemy so the people would not forget God’s faithful help. So, Samuel set up a stone and called it “Ebenezer,” which means “stone of help.” This is not the only place in scripture such stones were used as reminders of God’s faithfulness… of what he has achieved…  and that’s what I think of when I look back at 2023.

Personally, the Haefs’ house started raising Ebenezer’s in January when Charis turned 16. That moment just felt like a marker of the Lord’s faithfulness to our family. And we felt it again last May when Talitha turned 10, then again in July when Solomon turned 5, and I felt it most personally in October when I turned 40. 

Significant birthdays weren’t the only thing that helped my family feel God’s faithfulness last year. We also felt it through anniversaries. Holly’s parents and my parents both celebrated 50 years of marriage, and just last week, Holly and I celebrated 20. I mention all these dates because more than milestones, they feel like Ebenezers… testimonies to God’s faithfulness, monumental moments that help me remember who he is, and that we are his.

I believe these Ebenezer moments were not just a reality for me personally, but also for us as Shades Valley. While there are countless ways the Lord displayed his faithfulness last year, I will simply mention three: our finances, our staff, and our body.

After sitting through our annual meeting, you probably don’t want to hear any more about our finances, but indulge me for a moment. Shades, last year we installed new parking lot lighting for the neighborhood, paid off school-lunch and after-school-care balances for needy families in the community, and replaced our old facility’s two largest A/C units. All of that totaled about $85,000, and not a dime of it came out of our budget! What kind of crazy provision is that? Can the Lord’s faithfulness be denied as he has worked through wise people to provide for our needs and those of the community through the parking lot and the Joseph fund? Add to that, the fact that we continue to miraculously make budget each year, which I know involves each of you sacrificing, and I stand in awe of God’s work in you to make you such a sacrificially generous people. And, along with each of you, I cannot wait for the day when this building is paid off in July of 2028! I am confident the Lord’s faithfulness will see us to and through that day, for don’t you see his faithfulness reflected in our finances?

Not only there, but have you seen the Ebenezer that is our staff? They are a stone of testimony to the faithfulness of the Lord, and I wish I could talk about each of them individually, so please forgive me for only highlighting three. First, there’s Joely, whom the Lord provided at just the right time to take the lead in our children’s ministry. She steps into a long legacy of faithful women who have served in this capacity at Shades, and through her leadership this past year, our kids’ ministry has grown back to its pre-covid capacity. Second, there’s Sara who’s not here because she just had a baby, and that’s also the reason she is stepping down from being an awesome youth leader, so she can focus on being an awesome mom. And Shades, she is a testimony of the Lord’s faithfulness in our midst. Sara came to us as a college freshman, was baptized in our midst, dated and married Alec, became a leader in ministry, and now has a growing family. Can there be a greater testimony to God’s faithfulness than allowing us to do life together like this? And thirdly, there is Brad and John-Mark. I’m only counting them as one because in October we recognized them together for over a decade of service at SVCC. Shades, that’s crazy! The faithful staff the Lord has blessed us with is a memorial stone, an Ebenezer to his faithfulness.

Finally, in 2023 did you see the Ebenezer of the body? That’s right, you are a testimony of God’s faithfulness in this place. Last year, you served around the world, throughout Birmingham, and you served one another. Whether on the ground in Poland working with Ukrainian refugees or hanging out in our kitchen making meals for anyone in the community or coming together to figure out how to get a family’s heater fixed and buying them a Christmas tree so they can fully celebrate the season… Shades, in all these ways and more, I have been blown away by the faithful love of the Lord on display through you. 

May all these things be more than moments from 2023, may they be memorials, reminders, not of our accomplishments, but of God’s faithfulness! He has provided all we’ve needed for the journey thus far, and he will provide all we need until the day we arrive at home with him. So, as the old hymn says, “Here I raise my ebenezer; hither by thy help I’ve come. And I hope, by thy good pleasure, safely to arrive at home.”

I love you all,

Pastor Jonathan